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For Paul, if he's still around and lurking:
Hi PauPau, I hope you're doing alright. I think of you guys and I miss you. I like to think nothing bad happened, but I am confident something unfortunately did during the heights of covid.
I understand your absence, it must be a lot. But do know I rather have the bad news than live in obscurity. You were my best friends and I know I mattered a lot to you guys as well.. So, y'know, don't wait too long okay?
Anyway, your friendships meant a lot to me and I will always cherish that time in my life. You are, and were, wonderful. :')
In honour of the three of you, I'm borrowing your names and likeness for some side characters. I know you would've liked that! I did give this Paul a lot more hair though, hahaha! But he has your beard! :D He's not you, of course. Just your likeness. But he matters to Oliver the same way you did to me. So I hope that, when Paul pops up in the story, you'll know how much I admired you as an (non-relative) older brother. Thanks for everything you taught me about being a gentleman, about suits and architecture. Thank you for your advises on life and for letting me participate in your goofy antics and witty humour. When I'm the least confident about myself, I think of the things you've told me. Thanks for being with me in spirit.
Much love,
MerMer.
PS. if anyone else is reading that message (which you undoubtedly have) just refrain from commenting on it. I have limited ways to reach them, and I'm banking on this message reaching them someday if they ever come across this. So just leave it as the plaque that it is. thank you.